‘SARS’mentality!!

Hello Lovelies,

This is not the post we planned to have up today but it is the post today requires. We must lend our voice to what is important right now.

To say that I am tired is an understatement. I am tired, drained and exhausted by the things happening in Nigeria. On May 31st, a post titled Enough is Enough went up on the blog and it is sad to see that between May and now, we are still fighting. We are still fighting the authorities meant to protect us. We are still losing lives of important people. We are still in pain as a people. And to make matters worse, they are still killing the brave heroes that are going out to protest.

For the past two days, I have literally absolved the news everywhere and with every post, the reality of the situation saddens my heart. But we cannot stop and won’t stop. We will fight each problem brave, strong and together as a people. Eventually, the people are bound to win.

I cannot comprehend why the government would stand and watch as robbers and murderers wear the noble policing uniforms. I cannot comprehend why the protest has gone on for this long without the government doing something proactive. I am yet to phantom what exactly they are discussing behind close doors. I am even more confused on who is actually the President of Nigeria and what the job of a President is because right now I am weak. Can there be a President without the people?

I hope we know that this fight has to go beyond these protests. The next elections, we need to be very intentional about our votes. In the last election, I kept on asking why everyone was acting like it was only two people that were contesting. Well newsflash!! The next election please endeavour to vote with common sense. Apparently, it is too much to expect that these older men would care about the next generation.

If you let me, I would ramble on forever because there are too many things wrong. But for now, we focus on Ending SARS and a complete detoxification of the Nigeria Police Force. That is what we stand for. This ‘SARS’mentality has to end! The end is now!

I am tired!

#ENDSARS!!!

#ENDPOLICEBRUTALITY!!!

#ENOUGHISENOUGH!!

THE YOUTH ARE SUPPOSEDLY THE FUTURE OF TOMORROW.

You are living your life, give us the opportunity to live ours!

Queen N.

STAYING ENCOURAGED!!

Hello Lovelies,

This is a short video giving you tips on how you can overcome the spirit of discouragement. There are many things that occur on a regular basis that could discourage us and make us feel extremely weak. However, we cannot afford to remain down.

I promised to attach the Bible verses I mentioned so here they are:

Psalm 55:22

1 Peter 5:7

Isaiah 40:31

Jeremiah 29:11

Isaiah 41:10

Joshua 1:9; Deuteronomy 31:6,8

Romans 15:13

Romans 8: 28

Romans 8: 31-39

These are some handy Bible verses I have penned down to constantly ginger me and remind me that God has got me always. Try reading them and confess them to yourself.

Queen N.

LIFE!!

Throw a dice and I will tell you what life is

Its outcome is like life’s randomness

Utterly cruel and unfair sometimes

Sweet and pleasant at other times

Life is so fickle

A blink is too long a time for its fickleness

They say nothing is constant except change

I say life’s flickering loyalty throws change off the change charts

Life is cruel and wicked

But we all get our fair share of its pleasantness and sweetness

Like Batman’s two face

We get to experience both its side

To what end is life’s randomness then?

Will it hurt if it was just straight with us?

Why drive us up the hill of happiness

And then throw us down to the filth of sorrow?

We live in constant fear of life’s randomness

In that fear, we actually live

For if life was straight and plain

Our lives would be void and meaningless.

TAKING AN L!!

I am not even going to lie, failing sucks! Like in a major way, especially when you fail at something you were so prepared for; when you fail at something you have waited for; when you fail at something you have thought through. It hurts more when you fail at something you committed into God’s hands and you knew He gave you the go ahead. What does one do then? When you are so mad at God and you can’t even explain it? What happens when God becomes the last person you want to hear about because ‘He is supposedly the cause of the failure’. That feeling sucks and I know this because I have been there. I have felt it. I have thought the thoughts and I have disliked God in a very big way because He wasn’t there when He should have been. He was acting like He had favourites.

Let’s take this scene to the last class of senior secondary school where we are meant to sit for the West African Senior School Certificate Examination. I had done my part, I had read and when I say read, I mean read! I prayed, I committed all into the Lord’s hands, I was pretty confident in myself (not overconfident but confident enough). To top it up, the questions were pretty fair, and I was expecting my perfect looking result slip with 9 A1’s (yes, I don’t settle). Well, result day came, there was a C, a lot of B’s and 2 A’s (sigh). What sort of rubbish, am I right? I didn’t even know how to react; I just went to my room and balled my eyes out and very well blaming God. He saw how hard I worked, He saw everything and yet He didn’t crown my efforts with good success. I felt so bad.

What then do we do when we fail or when we lose, and it looks like everything is lining up against you? Back then, I didn’t know how to react. I only felt a lot of anger.

Recently, I received another heart-breaking result. Oh, and this one is way way more important than WASSCE. I failed. When I saw the result, again, I didn’t know how to react. I didn’t cry. It was like my body prevented me from crying. I wasn’t processing it. I read, I prayed, I spoke out in faith, I believed, I trusted, I knew God was with me through it all and somehow,  someway, it was like He fell my hand yet again. I wanted to blame Him, I wanted to be angry with Him, but I couldn’t. I am glad I couldn’t. I am grateful I couldn’t because I know that if I have God, He is working out everything for my good. He is working out everything for your good.

What happened between WASSCE and now? Why couldn’t I blame God? There is this grace of being able to take an L and still praise God. This comes from seeking out the Lord, seeking His face, dwelling in His presence, and just knowing. I pray that this grace dwells in each and every one of us, it makes things easier honestly. This is not to say I am perfect, or I have it all figured out (that would be a major lie). But as Pastor Michael Todd of Transformation Nation would say ‘Progression over Perfection.’

Taking an L, taking your loss, taking our losses can be a very difficult task, especially when the L isn’t an exam lol, but take the L. Take the L because He is working through it for us. It can be difficult, it can seem impossible, but I pray that whatever failure or loss it is, that God will help you process it. I pray that the Holy Spirit will help you heal and that you will be prepared for what is coming because God specialises in exceeding our expectations.

Oh, and guess what? I am so excited to see what He is about to do in my life. I have a feeling my mind is about to be blown like never before. I have a feeling He is about to bless me so much that my head will be turnioniown.

Till then, lean in! God is forever good. Amen!

P.s: There is this amazing movie called High Calling by Mount Zion I found on YouTube and it literally drives home the message. God always has a plan!

AFOMA

Thoughts!!

What makes you go?

What is it about life that gets you off your bed, up and running?

What pushes you to do things you thought you would never do?

What drives you?

Is it purpose?

The reality that you were made for something?

The desire to fulfil those big dreams of yours?

Or to add value everywhere you go?

I think it’s that orgasmic feeling that comes with completing a task you are after.

Oh, not that?

Then maybe it’s just your selfish desire to quench your thirsty sense of validity.

You so desperately want to be loved and adored by many.

You never want your name to leave the lips of any.

Your actions are fuelled by the crowd’s reaction.

You seem not to have a thought of your own because you live off people’s opinion.

Hell, you don’t even live for yourself.

Almost as if your life is not yours.

No! It’s not God’s either.

Your life is shredded into many bits,

blown to the air for any idiot to catch.

You are what they call a people pleaser.

You live for the glitz and glamour.

I guessed wrong again?

Maybe it is your big fear of failure then,

You cannot handle it,

The thought of it sends uncontrollable shivers down your spine,

The idea of failure is filthier than filth itself to you.

You never want to be a let-down.

Always wanting to live up to expectation, up to standard.

For this reasons, you do everything to avoid it.

Your commitments, dreams and aspiration are all built on this fear,

Then again, maybe you are like me.

You are unsure of what drives you,

Sometimes, you even think nothing makes you do the things that you do.

You envy those that have a reason,

Other times, you are convinced it is all of the reasons on the block,

Because you are neither here nor there, motivation can get very distant,

Your work is always left unfinished

And you find yourself floating in the void of “uninspiration”,

Desperately begging to be pulled down by the gravity of inspiration.