WASTEFUL PART 2 (RESOLUTIONS)!!

Anyway, just so we are clear and on the same page, this year is not that year o! This year we move with urgency. This year we cling to the word. This year, we make the best decisions because He is guiding us. An overwhelming description of God is that He is merciful. Ahh if I was God, I would have thrown myself one hot slap since. But thankfully, I am not God. God is so good, and His mercy endures forever. He is the only one that remains faithful in my unfaithfulness. He is the only one so kind to give multiple chances. This is the confidence I have that He is not done with me because it is written in the word that He would never forsake me.

So, I start this new year with a new commitment, with the hope of a restoration of lost ideas. Another opportunity to do the right things by God. As you would imagine, it is only something the Holy Spirit would help you do. On your own, you will fail, and I have example for you o.

Now it is me that just explained to you that I did not have sense before before, and this is not that year. Just this Sunday(first sunday in 2021), the Holy Spirit told me to carry an extra plastic bag in my handbag. This is something I usually do on a regular but for some reason I had removed the plastic bag in this particular small bag. He reminded me to put one in. Ah guess what your girl did again. I said I am not really carrying anything like that now so what would I need an extra plastic bag for? That is how your girl went to church without plastic bag o. After church, it turned out a friend had brought me a Christmas gift, did I have a bag to put it in? NO! In addition, another sister of mine wanted to give me snacks and drinks, again did I have bag to put it in? NO! Because I lacked a bag to put it in, I limited how much I could receive. Let that sink in! Imagine God wants to embarrass you with gifts, and you go with a tiny bag. I just started laughing at myself because it is like I really do not want to hear word. Butttt I must hear word o! I must learn. Ahh the goal is to completely submit my will to God. All these talking back will be greatly curtailed this year in Jesus Name. The lesson must be learnt. I will not let myself get to the point where I lose everything before I learn to keep shut.

And the verse for me that really drives it home is Psalms 32:8-9 and I love it particularly in The Passion Translation (TPT) version –

I hear the Lord saying, “I will stay close to you, instructing and guiding you along the pathway for your life. I will advise you along the way and lead you forth with my eyes as your guide. So, don’t make it difficult; don’t be stubborn when I take you where you’ve not been before. Don’t make me tug you and pull you along. Just come with me!”

I want to believe that a word is enough for the wise. I have heard people say that experience is the best teacher. I personally believe that the experiences of other people can teach me. I do not have to put my hand in fire to see and understand that it is capable of burning. Please do not waste the ideas the Lord gives you. Execute them. Do you know the best way to start? By just starting. Start small. Start slow. They are all better than not starting at all. And if you are like me that has wasted a few opportunities, do not be too sad. We serve a God of multiple chances. As long as you are willing to accept your wrong and turn back to Him again for guidance, He is willing to lead you.

But repeat after me, ‘I WILL HEAR WORD THIS YEAR O!’ Lol! This will be our motto. We must make the best decisions this year and beyond.

A special person to my heart said I should tell you people that this year will and must not be a wasted year!

BE FRUITFUL!

Queen N

WASTEFUL PART 1!!

What an interesting topic, isn’t it? Do not be wasteful! This is more like a reflective piece for me than anything else. I hope that you learn a thing or two from this.

As 2020 came to a beautiful end, it dawned on me how wasteful I had been in previous years including 2020. I was sitting down reflecting and the reality of the situation washed over me. I immediately felt very sad. A little background story is that as 2020 was ending, we (praying with Pastor M tribe) were praying for the year 2021. One of our prayer points was for seeing eyes, hearing ears and a heart craving understanding. I believe that as I kept praying this prayer, I actually started seeing and things were beginning to make sense to me.

I am sure at this point; you are probably wondering what I could have possibly wasted. I have wasted IDEAS! Yes, a lot of ideas. A lot of instructions. I realised that 2020 might have been a year of unveiling for me. It had been in the works for years. But guess what, I had refused to align myself with God’s plans for me. I had let my low self-esteem get in the way of being used by God. So please dears, if you see me walking along the street chanting ‘For God has not given me the spirit of fear but the spirit of power, love and of a sound mind.’ Just leave me abeg. E get why! I need to keep reminding myself because I make wrong decisions when I am blinded by my lack of self-confidence. Let me share from my reservoir.

If you know me and we have ever had a deep discussion about the state of the country (Nigeria), then it is possible that you have heard me talk about starting a Youth Platform. It is a project God laid in my heart years ago. But guess what I did with it? Talk! I talked and talked and never really did anything about. Time and time again, the vision would come alive in my heart, like something on fire. And I would TALK about it passionately for the period and do nothing more. Through constant talk, I had at least come up with the structure for how it would work. But I constantly told myself that I could not create let alone lead a full fledged youth platform. The plan was for it to grow into being partly a political party as well.

The fire came alive again in my chest while I was in Law School (2017/2018). I think this time I wrote the vision down but again I did not really do anything about it. Guess what again? Early 2020 the vision started burning again in my heart with urgency this time. I could not understand why but as with every time it happens; I give myself a hundred reasons why I could not do it. If only I anticipated the ENDSARS protest. If only I anticipated what was in front. If only I anticipated what the year had in stock. If only I submitted to the will of God. What if like Mordecai said about Esther, this was why I had been given the vision.

To tell you the level of urgency, the name of a someone to talk to dropped in my heart. Before you stone me, I actually messaged her about it. I knew she was busy with a lot of things. So, I did partial obedience. You know, I messaged the person, but I did not really follow up with it. I hope you know that partial obedience is disobedience. I had been stubborn and disobedient for years. Merely taking baby steps for such a great vision. How could I have been so lackadaisical about this mission?

Imagine the divine position 2020 would have given the platform if I had started it as at when I was to? If I had stopped questioning God and just did it? If I stopped defending myself before His court as to how unqualified I am? He is the one that qualifies who He calls not the other way around. Now I wish I had listened. Now I wish that I had moved with urgency. Now all I can do is wish. I do not know if I will ever feel that fire again. Because really when you remain adamant, you will stop hearing things. You will start looking for the things and won’t find them. Hence, I started this year asking God to use me afresh. But really why should He? He reminded me year after year, and I gave flimsy excuses. Now who my excuses help?

I am sorry but that is just one of the ideas that I wasted. Let me further confess. The next idea I wasted was starting a delivery company. A few years ago, I was inspired to start a delivery company. See ehn I had a different excuse this time. You see this time it wasn’t because I was not self-confident. The excuse this time was that I did not have the resources to execute the plan. I remember sitting down at the dining table gisting my mum about the idea I had. But for every picture I painted, I was quick to add why it was not a feasible plan. I was busy telling myself that I am thinking big scale. I forgot the principle of actually taking a step. I forgot to start small and let it grow. Somehow, I thought I had to have everything in abundance before I started it out. I remember even asking myself, why are my ideas always so capital intensive? If I could go back to slap myself to reality, I probably will.

Again, just look at how 2020 was. Everybody started engaging in online buying. I mean with the lockdown it was the only logical thing to do. Imagine how the delivery company could again have been divinely positioned. If only I had started it. But I was too carried away with the big goal that I forgot it was made up of smaller goals. What if I stepped forward and actually bought just one bike? Interestingly, when I got this idea, delivery companies were not as rampant as they are today. But as usual, I wasted it. I sat on it and looked pretty doing so. (tears).

See ehn let me cry a little. I will drop part 2 next week. So, make sure your stick around.

Stay blessed!! And please do not waste instructions. If you have received one right now, run with it. Do not join me to be writing reflective piece a few months from now o.

Queen N

My Special Christmas Miracles 4!!

Hello Lovelies,

This is the final part of my Christmas miracles.

Eighth miracle – On the 23rd, I had my nails done (dancing). I always struggle with deciding what style I would get. Eventually, I end up going for something simple. That is exactly what happened on that day as well. I ended up going for a simple acrylic set.

Anyway, the important miracle for the day was actually a testimony my sister told me concerning her friend. Her friend was saved from what ought to be a fatal accident. To tell you how bad it would have been, observers were surprised by how the accident was averted. They were already sure that she was going to be hurt but she wasn’t to the grace of God. The bus driver of the bus she boarded right after expressed his shock because he saw the whole thing play out. But my God preserved her.

 I count it as one of my miracles because a testimony connected to my sister is a testimony connected to me. Most of my sister’s friends I consider to be my baby sisters as well. Had anything happened to that friend, my sister would have been affected. Had my sister been affected, I would have been affected. And my agreement with God did not include tears in December. It did not include pain or worry. We were on pure cruise mode. So, I am grateful. This is the second accident HE averted in December for me and I am totally in love with this God.

Ninth miracle – Can you guess what I got on Christmas eve? Lol. Of course, I cannot hear your responses. On Christmas eve, I got a call that brought me food. A church member was nice enough to cook food in order to distribute to the students who could not travel home for Christmas. I happen to be a Youth Exec. so I was the middleman. And that was how I got free food on Christmas eve. Believe me, it was delicious. I mean from just let me taste it, I finished the whole plate.

Tenth miracle – By Christmas morning, I was already running a bit low on cash, but I was unbothered. God was taking care of me in His own way. That morning I decided to make Christmas breakfast for my myself and my housemates. It was the first time we were getting to eat together, and it was fun. It really helped us bond better. They were grateful for the meal. One of my housemates then asked me to cook for them again the next day and she transferred some money to my account to do that. Of course, she transferred more than what I really needed to make the food. So, I went from low money to more money that same morning.

Later in the evening, my other housemate treated me to a home cooked dinner. It was delicious and I even got to try a Greek salad with good music in the background.

Eleventh Miracle – That same Christmas day, my church family -yes, I have a whole church mother, father, and siblings – brought me so much food. I had packs of jollof rice and chicken, pepper soup, extra pack of chicken sef, drinks and chocolate biscuits. To crown it all, they got me a pair of trainers. Like only me!!!!! I really did not have to cook for the next couple of days. I was on full cruise mode. Please I enjoyed myself o. The food was delicious. Ahh no they spoilt me, but I am soooo grateful to them and for them.

Finally, my last recorded miracle. Hmmn. So, I was gisting with Afoma and we were talking about skin care products. There is a back story to that, but I will save it for another time. But in the course of the gist, I mentioned that some of my skin care things were beginning to finish but I could not afford to buy another batch now so it would have to wait. The very next day, a friend came to drag me out of my house that we should go shopping. There were a set of shops he wanted to go to. I had not even had my bath yet when he came with his wahala. So, he waited for me, I showered, got dressed and went out on this shopping. The koko of the gist is just know that as I was coming back, I had restocked my skin care products and money did not come from my pocket. Pastor M had gisted us about this Asda skin care range she uses. It is actually quite affordable honestly. I saw it and I was quite excited to use the products my Pastor M recommended, so I picked some and put it in the basket o. When it was time to pay, my friend just paid for everything. I came back home with free skin care products, subway, and paid bus fares. Isn’t God a wonder? I will leave to answer the question.

Well, we have come to the end of my Christmas miracles!! In total, I learnt two major things in December, 2020. First, God loves me too much. Like HE loves me so much that HE spoils me with what I need and just want. Now, I know if I ask my Father for something and HE withholds it, there has to be a reason which is for my good. Secondly, I learnt that Favour is higher currency than money. This is something Pastor M has mentioned a few times but now, it is real to me. God’s Favour upon your life ehn. See how I was getting things. I did not receive that refund in December but I did not lack a thing. I was supernaturally taken care of and I love it. Sometimes, I think I am not even grateful enough for how wonderfully God deals with me.

I hope you enjoyed the gist but most importantly, I hope you learnt something. If you did then please share with us in the comments. Thank you for sticking with me and my gist. I wonder what our next series would be on. Stick around and find out.

P.s: Remember that miracle about my assessment and I hoped to get distinction in the second part? I did get a distinction by God’s grace. He constantly leaves me in awe.

Stay blessed!

Queen N

My Special Christmas Miracles 3!!

This is a continuation of my special christmas miracles series. To get a better understanding, make sure you read part 1 and part 2. Then come back and join me here in part 3. Trust me, you do not want to miss any of it. Now, let’s get back to it –

Again, because my God was dealing with me in doubles, my fourth miracle happened that day as well. Now the delivery details of the shoe said it would take 7-10 days to get to me. But, I started planning my Sunday attire for that week and I thought it would be nice to wear those heels with my cloth. Exactly two days after the order was made, my shoes arrived! No read that again. My shoes ARRIVED! Something that was meant to take 7-10 to get to me ordinarily took 2 days because I was just thinking that it would be nice to wear it that Sunday. Now let me even psyche you, I ended up not wearing the heels that Sunday. I wore trainers as always..lol. But God was showing me and teaching me that He paid attention to the desires of my heart however silly. My Father definitely knew that I would not wear them that Sunday, but He brought what I desired to me.

Fifth miracle – I got a merit in an assessment. You are probably wondering why this is a miracle..lol. It is o because I did not know what to expect with this one. I had tried to do the assessment to the best of my ability, but I just wasn’t feeling like myself that period. I was also a bit worried that the result came out a few days to Christmas. I really did not want anything dampening my holiday mood. Thankfully, I passed it with a merit sef. Now silly me saw the result and was upset thinking that I could have scored more. I had to remind myself of how unsure I was to begin with. God had actually been merciful to me and granted me favour. Instead of being grateful, I was about to whine. I immediately brought myself back to order. I am grateful for passing this particular assessment with a Merit. There is a second bit of it, and I hope I make a distinction this time. We will watch and see.

Sixth miracle – That same day, a friend messaged me on WhatsApp. Now a little back story, we had spoken a while back about going for a manicure and pedicure together. I have fragile fingernails that tend to break at the slightest provocation. Consequently, I prefer fixing my nails. I feel like my hands look nicer when my nails are fixed. It’s Christmas and of course I wanted to fix my nails, but I couldn’t afford to. So, he messaged me all of a sudden to ask if I ended up doing my manicure. And I replied that I did not because honestly I did not want to do it without him (as planned) and now I have spent the money on something else. Hence, I basically could not afford to fix my nails now.

He replied asking me if we could still do the manicure and how much it would cost. In my head, I am thinking it is like he did not read that there is no money for me to fix the nails. But I replied yes we can always do it and told him how much it cost. The next thing he said was ‘oya let’s book na. I will do Christmas nails for you.’ And my lovelies that is how I got my Christmas nails. Shall I insert a picture for you guys? Lol! I will consider it. Go and watch the new videos on the instagram page and you will see the nails there lol.

What is my point? God was using various people unexpectedly to grant my Christmas wishes. It moved me. I am not sure he knew how excited I was and again it was not about the nails, it was about my God. I mean not having my nails done would not have killed me. Due to the multiple lockdowns and situation of things with covid, I had only done my nails once in 2020 and I was doing just fine. But He heard that little wish in my head and gave me another Christmas gift. It is the intentionality for me!

Seventh miracle – A day later, there was a knock on the door. Usually, I am the one that runs to get the door but that day, I really could not can. So, one of my housemates answered the door. It turned out that the University had sent us Christmas hampers. I am not sure they have ever done it before. At least during my undergrad years, I never received any hamper. Oh, it had all manner of things inside. From crisps to different chicken cuts and a bunch of things in there. Some I did not even know and did not bother trying..lol. It was a pleasant surprise and it definitely was a nice feeling to have enough food. Well from nails to being spoilt with food. I do not know about you, but I like it. I really really like it!

So, this is another account of four miracles and we have five left to go (dancing). That would feature in the final piece from the series. I really just hope that this series would actually ignite something in you about how much faith you can have this year.

Enjoy this one until same time next week Friday..lol.

Stay blessed!

Queen N.

My Special Christmas Miracles 2!!

  • My sponsored Christmas

Earlier I mentioned calling my month what I wanted, and God backed it. I called December the month of special miracles. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that it would be a month where I learn to depend on Him wholly. If not for anything, for the fact that I did not really have enough in my bank account. So, I knew that I could not even flex this December. Do you know what I did? I went to have a conversation with the person throwing the Christmas party. Yes! I had a conversation with the real Father of Christmas. I mean my elder brother was about to be born so please sponsor all your children this Christmas. I prayed with a lot of faith that every little need of mine would be miraculously met. The truth is I had not personally identified anything I needed yet. But I knew there would be things I need in front.

Altogether, I have 12 miracles apart from the story of my sister I shared. You know like the 12 days on Christmas song..lol. Now come on a journey with me as I briefly speak about these miracles. Again, this is not for show off really. This is to show you what a relationship with God is capable of yielding. The doors knowing your Father would open for you. Also, I know I said I prayed with a lot of faith. Yes, I did. Were there days I slightly worried? Yes, there were but I always rebuked it and reminded myself of who had me. So, let’s start.

My first miracle was I received my Amazon vouchers earlier than when due. Now on the side, I have a digital ambassadorship volunteering role with the university. Basically, I answer questions concerning my school from prospective students. You know, some people want to know what the environment is like and other related questions. In return, I get paid in Amazon vouchers. This vouchers usually come at the end of the month. But I got a ‘by the way’ email stating that it would be sent way earlier. I received it and they had even added extra to the usual amount. I was so excited. It meant I could get myself a little something from Amazon as a gift for myself which I sure did.

Because I serve a God that gives double portions, that very day my second miracle happened. Now although, I had my Amazon voucher and was excited to gift myself something. What I really wanted was a pair of shoes. I suddenly started craving owning a pair of heels. I told myself I would wear one after over a year of not wearing one. However, I did not currently own any. So, I went on Boohoo and was window shopping. At the same time, I was chatting with a friend. He has been my friend since secondary school. And just so we are clear, he does not buy me anything. In fact, in the 11 or 12 years we have known each other, he had only bought me an actual gift once and coldstone once. Just giving you guys perspective ehn.

Back to my story, he started whining over wanting a particular sandwich and that I should get it for him. And I said in turn, he too should get me the shoes I was looking at. Of course, I was playing. I was trying to tell him that everybody is looking for something and he should free me o. Next thing, he asked me to send him the link to the shoes I was looking at let him see. I sent it. He then asked for my house details that he would order it. You know when you think your friend is pranking you yeah? That is exactly how I felt. But I sent him the details. Next thing he teased me asking me so I really think he can afford to buy me those shoes. In my head, I said I knew it!

There I was thinking that he really had tried to prank me, and he sent me a screenshot! I was in shock! He had actually ordered me the shoes and said it was my Christmas gift. I was so excited and could barely contain my joy. It really wasn’t because a friend bought me shoes. It was because it was a double confirmation in one day. My Heavenly Father was showing me with His Mighty Chest that He would take care of me. All I did was look at shoes and they were mine. Ahhh!!!!!! What a wawu? I started immediately thinking of what to look at next. My appetite for my special miracles increased. I could have more.

A couple of days later, I received an email from my school accommodation telling me that I was entitled to a refund. When I saw the amount I was entitled to, I ‘kinda’ feared a little. I asked them to double check please. Because I was sure that was not exactly accruable to me. It was checked and it turned out that it is an amount from my accommodation fees in undergrad. I do not know if you are getting it. All of a sudden, I have refundable fees from my days in undergrad. I graduated in 2017 and it is in 2020, they are reminded of that refund due to me. If it is not God, tell me who now? Now, I have not received the refund yet because the school went on break and all. But I strongly believe God just wanted me to know that His provision does not end with December, there is already provision stored up for me in future, at a time that it would be beneficial to me.

Yay!! So, that is the first 3. We have 9 more to go. Stay tuned!

Stay blessed!

Queen N